- Thou shall not worry, for worry is the most unproductive of all human activities.
- Thou shall not be fearful, for most of the things we fear never come to pass.
- Thou shall not cross bridges before you come to them, for no one yet has succeeded in accomplishing this.
- Thou shall face each problem as it comes. You can only handle one at a time anyway.
- Thou shall not take problems to bed with you, for they make very poor bedfellows.
- Thou shall not borrow other people's problems. They can better care for them than you can.
- Thou shall not try to relive yesterday for good or ill, it is forever gone. Concentrate on what is happening in your life and be happy now!
- Thou shall be a good listener, for only when you listen do you hear ideas different from your own. It is hard to learn something new when you are talking, and some people do know more than you do.
- Thou shall not become "bogged down" by frustration, for 90% of it is rooted in self-pity and will only interfere with positive action.
- Thou shall count thy blessings, never overlooking the small ones, for a lot of small blessings add up to big ones.
Friday, 28 November 2008
Thursday, 27 November 2008
Wednesday, 26 November 2008
Oh dang! The tigger up above us supposed to be animated and his tongue is hanging out and swinging back and forth like he just tasted something awful. Too bad animated pictures work in the side bar but not in the main blog!
Posted by Bluebirdy at 11:35
Friday, 21 November 2008
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Thursday, 20 November 2008
If you have been watching the news in the past few hours, about 5 hours ago, a fireball fell to the earth not far from my city. It was as big as a house, and it is being reported internationally. It was a meteorite, and landed just S.E. of Calgary Alberta almost on the border of Saskatchewan. I don't have pictures or video yet, it is too new, but it was exciting, lots of people saw it and wondered where it would land. Thank goodness it landed out in the country, not in the middle of a city. It reminds me of Superman who landed on earth that way. Did you know the Superman creator was Canadian? Did you know the movies and the series were filmed in Alberta, Canada? And now a meteorite HAS landed in Alberta. Think there's a superman in there? HAHAHA ROFL There will be lots of people driving to the crash site to see the deep crater it made. Might be a nice day trip, maybe we'll go too. (see http://www.ctvnews.ca for more about the fireball).
Posted by Bluebirdy at 22:07
"Hello Guys! I'm back!
I'm feeling better - and I didn't kill anyone with this flare up - can you believe it!!
I've been reading the daily digest - you guys are amazing! Staying positive, giving advice, not getting irritated - congrats!
I really think we have Fibro to show the world how strong you really can be. People without Fibro doesn't have that "inner power" we do - we cope with life, pain, rejection and heck knows what else and we
stay positive, we help others ... in a way Fibro makes us stronger.
I hope to chat to you guys soon - I'll be checking my email every few minutes!"
Posted by Bluebirdy at 21:56
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
They say that every gray cloud has a silver lining. There is also a scripture that says that ALL things work for good for those who love the Lord. ALL things, no matter how terrible. What an awesome feeling. Therefore, I have been trying to think of the good things that come out of tough situations. Even though I am confused about why God would finally drop this "cure" into my life, and then kind of take it away, because it caused a lupus flare, there have been benefits. At least 4 of my family, 4 of my friends, and quite a few blog readers have had their lives changed by D-ribose, so I feel as if I did help someone in this life, even from my bed! Each trial is just another lesson to learn. The pain that comes from a stress or crisis are only growing pains. Pains of change, stretching, exercising parts of your mind and spirit that you didn't know you had in you. I had to stop looking at each crisis as "Oh no, I can't take this stress anymore" and had to start thinking "Ok, so here we have another opportunity to learn something in order to grow and to help others, and I have help, the Lord promised to never forsake me or leave me."
I am feeling human again thanks to very low doses of prednisone, the lupus medicine I usually avoid like I'd avoid a poisonous snake, but even snake venom has some medicinal properties when used wisely.
It was my husband's and my third anniversary on the 15th, and still no honeymoon, but the legal papers are all in now, and I hope that's the end of the paperwork. Now we will get our day in court to present our case as to why to get my husband here from the war zone. Its in the Lord's hands now. I have pros and cons in mind for both situations, whether we win or lose. Whatever is God's will, I will accept and will know it is for my own good and part of my "mission" here on earth. I will still be in mourning if the Lord says "no" about us getting together, but I'll do whatever the Lord wants me to.
Posted by Bluebirdy at 23:56
Tuesday, 11 November 2008
I had to stop taking the D-ribose. It appears that it is so good for you, that it even strengthens your immune system. Well for a person with lupus, that can be fatal, because already our immune system is too strong, and the fighter cells attack our bodies and organs as if they are germs or foreign objects in our body. We can't even spend time in the sun, because the sun also strengthens your immune system, making lupus worse. I got so sick that for a few days I wasn't able to roll over in bed to reply to my emails, but I could read them, and was too weak to talk, or to hold up a book to read. I had a seizure, and another time, I think I got very close to death again, because I saw some of the things that I have seen during other near death experiences. I saw some wonderful things, but things that I have no words for, so I don't know how to explain it to people. I am still spending a lot of time thinking about those images and
trying to think of how to describe them.
There is a medicine used for lupus, (cortisone) and it's very strong and has such terrible side affects that I always said I would rather die of lupus than die of the side affects of that medicine. I have only been desperate enough to try it about 3 times in my life. I prayed for guidance about how to get feeling better. Obviously it's not my time to die, and I could not just lay there helpless forever. The impression I got was to take that medicine. I didn't want to do it. I called Mom upstairs and asked her advice. She has that medicine because she also has lupus. It suppresses the immune system so the fighter cells in your blood stop attacking you, and helps with any swelling or inflammation in the body. I spent days passing out and trying to do this US gov't proofreading project during the moments I was awake. I had pancreatitis, inflammation of the pancreas, and it has many nasty symptoms. The worst was that I kept passing out from my blood sugar going too high or too low because my pancreas was out of control. Mom said that the side affects of that medicine only come with large doses and long term use, but when I talked to my Dr. , she talked about large doses like 10 pills a day, or even put me in the hospital with cortisone IV, but said she didn't trust this hospital much, we are not even checked on often enough during the day while in this hospital. I didn't want the side affects from doing that, so I took a few pills and cut them into 4, and during the day would take one tiny piece of the pill, with a bite of food so I wouldn't get sicker. This is the third day of doing that, and finally many symptoms have lessened, I feel strong enough to type again, but not strong enough to get in the shower yet. So I am thankful now for this strong medicine with horrible side affects, in small doses, BUT...
I am wondering
I know I will learn in time the reason why God took my healing away....but until I learn that, my feelings are hurt like a child whose parents did something that hurt the child, but was for the child's own good. I feel a bit betrayed and confused by the one who I love the most...my Heavenly Father.
I am so frustrated, I use my made-up word "FRUSTIPATED!!"---beyond frustration! So frustrated, that I am not able to accomplish anything else until this problem clears itself up. I have so much that needs doing urgently, and can't even find anyone to hire to help. I can't have anyone come live with me when I am in this condition, so I get upset thinking about my husband coming home. I can't bear the thought of making life hard or even miserable for him.
Interesting that the worst of my illness happened the day that I finished all the legal paperwork to go to court to get my husband here, 5 years of work, 1800 pages done in the last 5 days of work.
OH MY STARS!! I just noticed something!! I have had this picture as stationary for years, but the stationary had this as small pictures down the left side of the paper. I thought of putting it here because it reminds me of how I feel, looking out the window, trying to figure out "WHY??" Now I see this picture in a whole new light. I have never seen the wolf outside the window. Did you know "lupus" means WOLF? She is not looking out the window, she is turned away from the wolf, from the lupus. The dove in the corner, the symbol of the Holy Spirit, is watching over the lady! The wolf is standing in water, and that water is flowing into the window, and the woman's feet are in the water, so the effects of the wolf (the lupus) is affecting the woman. The light above the woman's head, I wonder what it's symbolism is. Light...spirit? knowledge? God? Any ideas from you, my friends? What do you think that light could symbolize in the picture and in how it could relate to me and the wolf (lupus) and my sitting by the window thinking? Any other symbols you would comment on? The moon, the fact the lady is wearing all white? The water? Whatever it is in the lower 1/4 left side of the picture? Maybe your insight will give me some insight.
Love you all---u r pieces of my life and heart.
This is Remembrance Day here:
The day we remember and honor our veterans
the day WWII ended
11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month.
Out of respect for all of our veterans form everywhere:
Posted by Bluebirdy at 13:18
Thursday, 6 November 2008
A very kind, spiritual blogger friend reads my blog and has reviewed it...look what he said about it. I can hardly believe he said such wonderful things!! Maybe he is my fan club. The only one I will ever have. lol. Go here:
Thank you Mel for your giant heart, and thank you Lord for my online friends! I think YOU are the master of blogs, being able to handle so many, to make them all so artistic, to reach out to so many souls, and to continue to uplift them as friends. I pray you will be blessed for all the lives you bless.
P.S. His blog mentions that he will review yours too if you ask.
Posted by Bluebirdy at 20:30