Sunday, 29 March 2009
Friday, 27 March 2009
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Thursday, 26 March 2009
Posted by Bluebirdy at 05:11
Wednesday, 25 March 2009
Posted by Bluebirdy at 16:07
Sunday, 22 March 2009
Blessings to you!
Posted by Bluebirdy at 18:48
Wednesday, 18 March 2009
Posted by Bluebirdy at 06:24
Friday, 13 March 2009
but the other thing, is books.
Posted by Bluebirdy at 20:18
Thursday, 12 March 2009
If you never felt pain, Then how would you know If you never had to pray, How would you know that I am a Deliverer? If you never had a problem,How would you know If you never had any suffering, Then how would If I never corrected you, How would you know that I love you? If you had all power, Then how would you learn If your life was perfect, Then what would you need me for?
that I am a Healer?
If you never had a trial, How could you call yourself an overcomer?
If you never felt sadness, How would you know that I am a Comforter?
If you never made a mistake, How would you know that I am a forgiver?
If you knew all, How would you know that
I will answer your questions?
If you never were in trouble, How would you
know that I will come to your rescue
If you never were broken, Then how would you know
that I can make you whole?
that I can solve them?
you know what I went through?
If you never went through the fire, Then
would you become pure?
If I gave you all things, How would you appreciate them?
to depend on me?
If you never felt pain, Then how would you know
If you never had to pray, How would you know that I am a Deliverer?
If you never had a problem,How would you know
If you never had any suffering, Then how would
If I never corrected you, How would you know that I love you?
If you had all power, Then how would you learn
If your life was perfect, Then what would you need me for?
Posted by Bluebirdy at 22:11
Posted by Bluebirdy at 17:05
Monday, 9 March 2009
I TRIED TO EMBED THE VIDEO HERE SO YOU COULD WATCH IT HERE WITHOUT YOUTUBE PAGE OPENING UP, BUT IT DIDN'T WORK, SO I GUESS I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO EMBED VIDEOS. PLEASE WATCH THIS VERY SHORT VIDEO ABOUT ONE OF THE CONDITIONS I TRY TO FUNCTION WITH. BEFORE YOU CLICK ON THIS VIDEO TO WATCH IT, CLOSE MY BLOG WINDOW, OR TURN OFF MY MUSIC BY GOING TO THE MUSIC BOX IN THE RIGHT COLUMN, AND CLICKING ON THE BUTTON THAT LOOKS LIKE 2 VERTICAL LINES . THAT WILL STOP THE MUSIC SO YOU CAN HEAR THE SOUND ON THE VIDEO. Click here:
Meanwhile, back at my everday life...
I am slower and slower each day getting to the hospital for my Mom. They moved her to the surgery floor last night, which means surgery will come soon. I am hoping it will change her life for the better, and will not take her, like the doctors fear.
ANOTHER LESSON OF "DELAYS HAVE A PURPOSE"
The reason I went to the storage unit was to get a suitcase to go to court with. When I saw the luggage and other things were stolen, I started looking for another one I could afford. The cheapest one I found was one suitcase with wheels for $35, but then I went to the biggest hardware store in the country, and for Saturday and Sunday only, they were selling a set of rose colored rolling suitcases that fit inside each other for storage for only $35. My receipt said "You have saved $70.89 today." So it was 60% off! If I would have gone to the storage unit at any other time, I would not have found that lovely luggage set that I was able to afford. I love that they are not black (like 90% of rolling luggage), because it's so hard to tell those apart at airports. Another little consolation gift from the Lord to help me through this stream of crisises. He knows our needs, and even our wants, and often helps fulfill them.
Posted by Bluebirdy at 21:56
Posted by Bluebirdy at 19:46
Friday, 6 March 2009
DAYLIGHT SAVING TIME
FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO USE DAYLIGHT SAVING TIME, REMEMBER TO TURN YOUR CLOCK FORWARD SATURDAY NIGHT. FOR SOME REASON THEY ARE DOING IT 5 WEEKS EARLY LAST YEAR AND THIS YEAR.
Posted by Bluebirdy at 19:30
Thursday, 5 March 2009
Posted by Bluebirdy at 21:46
Monday, 2 March 2009
Mom will be in the hospital at least 2 more weeks. (If she lives.) They have to get rid of the pneumonia, then she'll have surgery, then will be there for a while to recover because I really can't be the nurse she needs at home when there are 4 nurses working on her various tubes at one time. In 3 weeks I have to go out of town to court to try to get my husband here, and when I return from that, I know how my body reacts to traveling and stress, and I will be barely able to move for days after that trip. I will be praying that I will be stronger and healthier than ever to get through the next month or more, because there will be much more required of me whether mom lives or dies. I will have to hold moving sales and find another place to live if Mom passes. I know I keep repeating it but it just seems so very difficult for me that I am shaking.
I remember how much paperwork the government needed Mom to do for Dad when he died last year. I wondered how the government expected people who had no family to do all that paperwork for them after they die. I remember Mom spending more than 80 hours on it. I will be much slower than her if I am moving and going to court and having moving sales and sick all at once. I wish my husband was already here, or that Mom would live until he does get here so I will have his help. I will be praying for her to live, or for her death to be delayed, but the Lord does know better than I do what needs to happen and why,
so I will trust Him to do what is best for all concerned.
Posted by Bluebirdy at 16:57
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Thanks again for all your loving comments and emails and calls. Mom called me yesterday, telling me to get my sister and brother from out of town here, they were going to operate as soon as possible. They got here, and still no surgery, so I asked the nurse when it was going to happen, and she said mom now has pneumonia, so they can't operate while she has that. My sister is with Mom today, letting me get a rest, because I am in pretty rough shape myself. If she passes away, I will be happy she is not suffering anymore, but it will be so very hard for me because my disability income is not enough to live on my own, and I will have to have estate sales to sell everything in the house, and then find someplace to move to that I can afford. (nearly impossible.) My lupus is getting worse day by day through this, and I can barely lift 10 kilos (20 pounds), and I'm getting slower each day when getting up and getting to the hospital, and resting more and more often on my walker with a seat as I go up there. It's a bit expensive to have Mom in the hospital for me too. I pay $5-10 a day parking, $4-$8 for 1 small item to eat for each meal at the hospital cafeteria, and quite a bit in gas. I'm happy to do it for her, but with my little income, it might run out soon. Well I'm going to try to have a nap since my sister is relieving me at the hospital. I have not been eating or drinking enough, and my doc said that could bring back the kidney stone attacks, so whenever my back starts to hurt again, I tense up and pray for it to go away and go get a drink. It's quite a walk to where a visitor can go get a drink of water or bottled water from where Mom's room is, and lately I have not had the strength to even make it that far to buy the drink of water. They advise us not to drink the hospital water from the tap, maybe it has something dangerous in it or something. The patients get filtered water, but Mom is not allowed to have anything by mouth, she is getting her fluids from IV (intravenous needles and tubes) and now they put another tube from her arm into her heart and pump IV foods (proteins and fats and vitamins) into that IV to strengthen her...so we are praying that with enough of those nutrients, her body will start to fight off the pneumonia. HOPE is so important. I think hope is the very thing that keeps us alive. If you lose hope, you lose reason for living. So hope is a catalyst for staying alive.
Continued prayers for my strength, my siblings strength, for softened hearts of my landlord and anyone else I may have to deal with through this ordeal, as well as my mother, are felt and appreciated. I need to approach the church and ask for volunteers to sit with her for a few hours a day to help her reach kleenex and scratch her nose or adjust pillows or answer her phone and hold it up to her ear, etc. They have pretty much forgotten us even though my parents worked almost full time for them for 50 years.
PEOPLE SAY STUPID THINGS WHEN THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. There is a lady from church who was assigned to come check on us once a month, but she is so very insensitive and doesn't understand pain or illness at all. Her husband has been suffering with kidney stones for months and she is quite mean to him about it all. She came to the door the other day and I told her Mom was in serious condition in the hospital, and she said "Well you and she are just barely existing anyway, not living, so maybe it would be better if the Lord took you both ASAP." I was so shocked and hurt I didn't even answer her. So I guess according to her, if we can't do all that she does, we have no right to be alive. I wonder what happens when she gets injured or in 10 years when she is in her 80s and can't do as much. I bet she will still think SHE has a right to stay alive. Needless to say, we will be requesting another lady to come to check on us instead of her. It feels awful that they have to ASSIGN someone to come visit us, but we have no way to go out and make friends, so that friends would check on us instead.
Well, I do remember that ALL THINGS (no matter how hard) work for good for those who love the Lord...I just don't feel like I have the strength, money and manpower or local friends I might need to get through all of this and do the funeral and move and then travel to another city to go to court to get my husband here for our hardship.
Just tired out me.
Posted by Bluebirdy at 17:13