I think of horoscopes as entertainment but don't believe them much. I'm really not very superstitious either and I think its funny that some people send on the emails that threaten that something bad will happen to them if they don't. I think its interesting when horoscopes DO hit the nail on the head though. I read them about 4 times a year, but read mine today and wow it hit on the head. I am so burned out and pushing myself to go back to the hospital even when I can't do anything there anymore, and the horoscope said:
My social activities consist of going to the hospital. Maybe this is suggesting to not go until it is necessary. I feel like I am going to end up in a hospital bed too if I go for 12-18 hours again today. It says I will need resources later on. Possibly to really emotionally support my family when Dad passes
I thought the bad tooth was what was causing my heart problem. I guess it was not. My oxygen level was MUCH lower then my Dad's, so I've been on oxygen at the hospital. I just wish they would let me use one of the many extra stretchers to lay down for 10 minutes to ease my pain. A chair for 12-20 hours is just not enough. If the floor wasn't so covered with bacteria I would consider laying on a blanket on the floor.
I am curious to find out how closely together my grandson comes and my Father leaves. Maybe they will greet each other in the air as they pass each other, or maybe even my grandson will help escort Dad home, or Dad will help escort my grandson into this world. The other belief is that the baby's spirit is already in the baby before birth, so its all a big mystery.
I thought the Lord gave me a husband so we could comfort each other through the hard times and share the joyous times, but I haven't gotten one word of encouragement from him, which really hurts, and I have to call him if I want to hear his voice. He says he is taking things very well mentally there and that he is quite safe unless a bomb hits the house he's living in, so if that's so, and if he is better off than I am right now, I would appreciate his shoulder! He said that he thought what I was going through was much harder than the war he was going through, which I thought was kind hearted of him, but I don't understand his silence. It makes me wonder if he will be any comfort or help to me when he gets here. I don't want to mention to him that I'm mad at him for not even sending one sentence that might comfort me, because I want it to come from his heart, not from me telling him he MUST do it. Feels like I'm losing husband, dad, possibly mom, daughter is not speaking to me (not the one who is expecting a baby), and my brother is so close to an emotional breakdown. I need a shoulder too. I am holding everyone else together and even doing medical procedures.
Its frustrating that we have been too sick to make friends here. I don't really have anyone that I could trust with a house key in case something happened to both mom and I, yesterday I needed someone to bring me more oxygen from home, but I got a Dr. to prescribe me some there.
I was hoping the tooth problem would cure my heart problem and my need for oxygen, but it didn't...so my future is questionable again.
OH WONDERFUL! Mom just called me and said that she and Dad were doing OK for now and that I could stay home and rest until she calls to say I need to come in. PRAISE GOD! I need even a few hours rest! So I can do what my horoscope suggests!
Blessings to you all dear friends who have written and prayed for me and have been as close as family. My computer friends are a bunch of angels!