Thursday, 1 November 2007

Opposition In All Things

We must endure the sorrow to appreciate the joy.
There will be both joy and sorrow in each of our lives, often each are in the same degree at the same time, to balance life out.

I am experiencing both good news and bad right now .

I have sort of a miracle to announce! I am a bit scared to say it out loud in case its just a temporary improvement or in case I jinx myself and make the problem return...but if it IS a miracle and gift from God, I would be TRULY ungrateful not to acknowledge it and share it with others.
In July I shared with you all that I was told I had 1 year or so to live due to lupus damage to my heart, well a few weeks ago I had an extensive oral surgery, had a tooth and jaw that had been infected for years and I didn't know it, they pulled the tooth which had crooked roots so it broke my jaw which was deteriorated from infection, but it looks as if this tooth is what damaged my heart and almost killed me! Doctors couldn't find it in MRIs, CT scans, blood tests, I never felt a toothache, so I am thanking my dentist for saving my life. Now that the tooth is gone and we are treating the infection, I am getting stronger and stronger! I rarely need oxygen or my walker anymore, which I used for 5 years!!! A TOOTH almost destroyed my heart and almost killed me! Can you believe it???

What is an even more wonderful coincidence, is that this week my hubby is supposed to get news about when he can come home from overseas. If the papers say he can come home, then the Lord had perfect timing (as usual) to improve my health just a month before his return and to show me hope, that I will gain enough strength to help him and be the help and wife he needs!!! I know the lupus and fibro are not YET cured,

but maybe the Lord will do that soon too! I have to hope.
In the meantime, I need a virtual hug. Daily my husband calls me and tells me what is going on in the middle of the war front. He is in the most dangerous city on earth right now, SWAT, near the border of Afghanistan and Pakistan, where they are breaking all war rules of the Geneva convention, and beheading people in the streets. They are killing the police first, now kidnapping and beheading all government employees.There are 2 wars going on at the same time. Swat used to be an independent country until 1979 and now some leaders want it independent again, and at the same time,the Taliban decided it would be a great place to fight the Pakistani Army because they are up in the Mountains and there are more places to hide and be strategic in the mountains, but it has not turned out that they were fighting in the mountains. They are fighting int he populated areas, killing innocent people. Three members of my husband's family have been killed and 1 injured so far this month, and still my husband continues to work. I admire him so much! He will be a changed man when he gets home, but he really has an amazing, faith-filled attitude when he talks about it. He is on mild tranquilizers to try to sleep through the bombing and shelling, etc...so am I, and I am thankful for them in times of war and other overwhelming situations.I am SOOO afraid of war. Some people's phobias are snakes or death or drowning, mine is war. If I didn't know better, I would think I was killed in world war 2, then was reincarnated again as a second chance to have a life, because even when I was 3 years old, in my bedroom, when an airplane would fly overhead, I would cover my head, thinking they would drop something from the plane or that they could see me from the plane. When hubby talks about it, it makes me want to jump out of my skin and run forever. I think God knew I could not bear to go through a war,
and having a husband and son in laws in the war
is too close for me already.
I had my diabetes under control for over a year, but now hearing about the war and what his family is suffering is so much stress that the diabetes has started again, along with the pain and not getting along with one of my daughters, and missing them terribly, especially when I wish I could go help my daughter move and have her new baby, and I spend a lot of time semi-conscious from too high or too low blood sugar, so I am trying to get that under control again. There is even a good point about that. Before the diabetes returned, I could not sleep more than 1.5 hours to 2 hours out of 24 due to the pain in my face. When I started passing out, I got so much sleep/rest that my jaw started healing much faster. GOSH stress makes these illnesses worse, and also fast weather changes, jumps in barometric pressure makes the pain unbearable, to the point of barely being able to function. Did you know there is no such thing as fibromyalgia or lupus in the third world countries he is in? My husband has been described my illness to the doctors there, and they have no clue what he is talking about. I guess they don't have the same toxins in their environment in a third world country or the same stress and speed of living. Here's a hug for everyone else who needs it too ((((HUGGGG))))) . I hope you got some smiles from seeing the cute little costumes coming to the door last night.(Halloween)
Blessings, Bluebirdy
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