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Thursday 31 December 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR




I'M BEING BARRAGED WITH A CRISIS DAILY, AND ONLY SLEEPING 3 HOURS EVERY OTHER NIGHT, SO MY MIND AND BODY ARE NOT FUNCTIONING WELL, NERVES ARE RAW, SO I DON'T WANT TO LIST ALL THAT'S GOING ON RIGHT NOW, BUT I CAN SAY THAT THE LORD'S PRESENCE IS VERY REAL AND TANGIBLE, HIS GUIDANCE IS LOUD AND CLEAR, SO I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT!! I AM MOST BLESSED AND MY CUP RUNNETH OVER!! I HAVE DONE SOME ATTEMPTS AT CHASING SATAN AWAY, IN CASE THAT IS WHAT ALL THESE EVENTS ARE ABOUT...BUT LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE, THIS TOO SHALL PASS. RIGHT NOW I REALLY FEEL THE MEANING OF THE VERSE "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME."
I FOUND 4 OLD DEAR FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK, SO THAT WAS A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS GIFT!


MAY 2010 BE A YEAR OF FULFILLMENT OF ALL YOUR NEEDS AND WORK AND DREAMS THAT ARE THE LORD'S WILL FOR YOUR LIFE!


BLESSINGS, SHEILA

Tuesday 15 December 2009

I WILL PRAISE YOU IN THIS STORM


Dear Internet Family;
      I wanted to share a song with you that comforted  all night. It is a song for the first step of healing from one of the hardest things that can happen to a person. If you look at the music box on the right side panel, keep clicking the small forward button at the top until you see song #7, and these are the words to the song while you listen to it.  ENJOY ! It's morning now. Time for me to have a nap, time for you to start your day. lol. My life is backwards like an alien. I will add a graphic (picture) to this post ASAP.
HAVE A BLESSED DAY!
SHEILA
 
 
Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that
You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

WHETHER THE WEATHER WILL CHANGE

BOTH PHYSICALLY AND SPIRITUALLY.
ABOUT THE WEATHER OUTSIDE AND THE WEATHER
CONDITIONS IN OUR SPIRIT.

DID YOU KNOW THAT YESTERDAY, THE COLDEST CITY

ON EARTH WAS JUST 8 HOURS FROM ME?


DID YOU KNOW THAT YESTERDAY MY CITY BROKE A COLD RECORD?
-44 DEGREES WITH WIND CHILL!!!
IT HAS NOT BEEN THAT COLD HERE FOR 116 YEARS!

THAT TEMPERATURE WILL FREEZE YOUR SKIN WITHIN 1 MINUTE, SO
ANYONE GOING OUTSIDE MUST COVER EVERY INCH OF SKIN,
ESPECIALLY MAILMEN AND DELIVERY PEOPLE!



THEY CANCELLED SCHOOL SO THAT CHILDREN WOULD NOT BE
WAITING AT BUS STOPS.



DID YOU KNOW THAT IT TAKES BOTH THE RAIN AND THE SUN TO MAKE A RAINBOW?
SO IF YOU WANT TO SEE THE RAINBOW AFTER THE STORM,
YOU MUST ENDURE THE RAIN, THEN WAIT FOR THE SUN.




BLESS YOU!

SHEILA

Sunday 13 December 2009

MY BIONIC SNOWMAN-MAYBE SNOWANGEL?


(This is not the man that helped me)


It's -28 Celsius, warmer than it's been all week, but we got 2 feet of heavy, water filled snow in 2 days. The city has a law that within 24 hours of a snow, you must have your sidewalks shoveled, or they will fine you, then warn you again, and if you still don't comply, you spend a weekend in jail and pay the cost of the city shoveling it for you. There has been one little old lady shown in the newspaper smiling, doing her knitting in jail, because she can NOT do her shoveling, and isn't rich enough to pay the fine, so she paid numerous weekends in jail, smiling, knitting. I think after she was featured in the newspaper, many people offered to shovel her walks, and perhaps it made people look around for others who might not be able to shovel either.


Someone came to our door. That was rare. The only visitors we get are deliveries from the drugstore or mailman. It was a young man with a shovel who asked if he could shovel our walks. I said "SURE! How much?" He said "$20 and I'll do all the way around the corner." Well that is a GREAT price since we live on a corner and that's a lot of sidewalk, so I said "Sure, and you are welcome to come back anytime it snows, because we are disabled." He said "SO AM I" as he pulled up his pants leg and revealed a metal, artificial leg!!! "I said "That's amazing that you can do this! I guess it depends on how sick you feel." He said "Well I don't feel sick, so that's why I can do more, and I don't even get a tired leg, now! I also have a rod in my arm and in my back and lots of scars on my face from a car accident. I just can't stand to sit in my apartment. I have to get out." I said "Even at 28 below? Are you sure you're dressed warm enough?" He said "oh yeah, I don't mind the cold. I said "Ok, talk to you soon" and shut the door.


The snow was so heavy, that it was making the branches of our 40 year old pine trees drag down to a 45 degree angle. Last year there were roofs that caved in due to heavy snow. It seems our winters are reverting to be as severe as when I was a child, and we were bundled up in multiple layers of clothes from head to toe, along with boots that went over our shoes. They don't even make those boots anymore, because the snow got so light for about 20+ years, but it looks as if people will be needing those boots again, so maybe they will start making them again.


When this young man was about half way done shoveling, I heated up some hot chocolate, and called his name, and he came to the door. I said "Please, come in and get warm for a minute, here's some hot chocolate." He said "Oh no, I don't want to get your floor wet, but he gulped down the hot chocolate and said "Oh that feels good, I'm ready to go again." I gave him his money and he went back to work. He knocked on the door and asked if he could dig out our car. I said "SURE!" So he did that, and that was hard, because the bulldozer had piled up all the snow from the road right behind our car. I gave him extra money for that.


He makes me smile just to think of a person with an artificial leg, a rod in his arm and in his back, and he's out doing harder work than most healthy people are willing to do. He is not sitting and whining in depression, as he COULD be.


It also showed me that there are really different kinds of disability. He, who has VISIBLE disabilities, can do so much and lead a normal life, whereas people with internal invisible illnesses are often too sick to do anything normally. Their eating, sleeping, activity, nothing they want their body to accomplish works the way they want it to.


So often we see people in wheelchairs or amputees getting awards for all that they accomplish, as an example to others, but those people who are severely ill and WANT to do all those things are shunned and avoided by doctors, family and friends, because "they look just fine!" So therefore they ARE fine, according to those who quickly judge them.


Well that's the most interesting visitor I've ever had...so I just had to share!


My heart still feels like ground meat, and my brain is not working too well yet...it is running in circles about my husband's feelings, and about our separate futures. There are lots of tears and shaking and praying, but STILL I feel the comfort of the Lord and now I am sensing the answers to all the questions that I am asking...so I am blessed, and loved, and protected. How do people live life without the Lord???


We are having our most quiet Christmas ever, with all my Christmas decorations stolen while getting moved from one storage unit to another, and no money to buy more, and no desire to even decorate, with this being the 2nd year without Dad and I'm feeling such a terrible loss, I was expecting my husband to be here this year, I had so many things planned for the whole family, I was SO excited. We will quietly celebrate the birth of our Lord, but without the bright lights and decorations. Maybe I'll get some on sale when they go on sale for 50% off in January.


Bless you all. Each of you is as unique as a snowflake, each friend is a gift from God. I am blessed with so much support. Maybe someday the Lord will reveal why He wants me to do everything alone physically, even though he has sent me precious long distance friends. Thank you for all your prayers and kind words and comments. Forgive me for not being up to replying to each one, but they do mean a lot to me.


Bless you all,
Sheila

Monday 7 December 2009

A KEPT WOMAN




The Lord has wrapped His arms around me,

giving me comfort, insight, emotional strength.

You, my wise earth angels, are the ones who spoke for Him,

as if His words came through you.

How do people survive without Him??

I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH SUCH CHRIST-LIKE FRIENDS!



I Am a ' Kept ' Woman!!

You see, there were a few times
when I thought I would lose my mind,
But GOD KEPT me sane.

(Isa. 26:3) Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee:
because he trusteth in thee.

There were times when I thought
I could go no longer,
But the LORD KEPT me moving.

(Gen 28:15) And, behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of.

At times, I've wanted to lash out
at those whom I felt had done me wrong,
But the LORD KEPT my mouth shut..


(Psalms 13:2-3) They speak vanity every one with his neighbour: with flattering lips and with a double heart do they speak. 3 The LORD shall cut off all flattering lips, and the tongue that speaketh proud things:


Sometimes, I think the money just isn't enough,
But GOD has helped me to KEEP the lights on,
the water on, the car paid, the house paid, etc..,

(Matt. 6:25 -34) 25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment? 26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? 27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? 28 And why take ye thought for raiment? 32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. 34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.



When I thought I would fall,
HE KEPT me up.
When I thought I was weak,
HE KEPT me strong!


I Pet. 5:7, Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
Matt. 11:28-30 28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light


I could go on and on and on,
but I'm sure you hear me!
I'm blessed to be ' KEPT '
Do you know a ' KEPT ' woman?
If so let her know she is ' Kept '.

'I'm "KEPT " by the Love and compassion of the Lord!!!






Sunday 6 December 2009

I NEED SOME REST!

I wish the Lord would give me more than 2 hours of sleep a day of He expects me to handle a new crisis every other day!

My new tooth crown just broke off, so Monday or Tuesday I will be getting my 1 week old crowns remade, *4 joined together for strength), which put me in the hospital last week. I am worn down and raw! (No, not my teeth, Me! lol). Praying I don't react to this dentist trip. I was going to call this post "Give me a break", but I already got one! My tooth! lol. Gosh.

Saturday 5 December 2009

MORE BIG ROCKS, But Earth Angels and Heavenly Angels Lifting Them.

Baptisms, Divorce Research and Walking an unknown path:

Thankyou all for your thoughtful messages. I HAVE FELT YOUR PRAYERS & THE LORD'S COMFORT AND STRENGTH...just not sensing the guidance or answers yet. 
 
Walking an unknown path
     This feels so alien having the government separate a family. We still love each other, so there's nothing to distance my heart from him; He wasn't killed in the war, but still could be, so no way to finalize that he's gone.  I don't think there's a book on how to deal with loss by corrupt government! I just hope my husband is not so distraught that he stops being careful about avoiding the gunfire from the Taliban or something like that. It does feel like life has stopped when you lose a husband in any way.

    I guess the closest analogy I can think of, is having your child kidnapped...and never knowing if you will see them again or not, and losing all your hopes and dreams and future for them, but not your love for them.

  
     I know ALL things work for good for those who love the Lord but I just have so many questions, so many losses, so many confirmations that I was SURE was from the Lord, that we WOULD be together. Without His strength and confirmations, I could not have waited this long...and now I even doubt those, since they all came to nothing.
 
Baptisms
     Even my GOOD news makes me sob today. Yesterday my daughter that has not ever been too excited about religion told me that today her younger son is getting baptized! I WAS CRYING WITH JOY AND WITH THE HEARTBREAK THAT I CAN'T BE THERE WITH HIM! Her older son will be baptized in a month or 2. They are in the USA, I'm in Canada. In Canada, a passport is not a "right", it's more like a privilege or a luxury given only to people who can prove they are so well they won't make medical bills when they travel, and I read there are a number of other restrictions to keep people from getting a passport in Canada, but I can't remember, because the health one is the only one that pertained to me. I haven't seen my daughter or her boys except for a few hours once, since my first husband abandoned us, then couldn't support myself so I had to either be homeless in the states or move back to Canada.   
  
     Wow, I guess EVERY past loss is coming to the surface this week! It doesn't help that we are in a WEIRD snow blizzard! There is thunder and clouds so dark that at 10 A.M.  people's car lights and street lights were on like early evening!
 
     To add to the load, I am not sleeping much or eating, and my husband decided to take on one of the biggest translation projects we ever had, (we own an online business together) so I have to do the English proofreading. I'm sure it helps him keep his mind off this mess, but with my health and sobbing and shaking and lack of sleep and food, and Christmas preparations, I really don't need more work right now.
 
    On Tuesday I go back to the dentist to finish the process of the 4 crowns at once, that put me in the hospital LAST week. I hope I don't end up there again.  That's a lot of things on top of each other.
 
     I AM SO HAPPY AND PROUD ABOUT MY GRANDCHILDREN GETTING BAPTIZED! I JUST THOUGHT I WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE WITH THEM FOR ALL THOSE THINGS! *SOB*
 
Divorce Research
    I found a really interesting article about medical research they did that proved that people who had gotten a divorce had a very peculiar changes in their body! It didn't matter if they knew the divorce was coming or not or if it was traumatic for a long time or not. It mentioned symptoms that acted like adrenal burnout, CFS, lupus, MS, and FM, because the symptoms of those are so much alike.

Divorce, the study says, is really bad for your health. Those who were never married or living with a partner did not have these health problems.  In fact, it found that people who suffer marital disruption through either divorce or widowhood or separation due to financial crisis are 20 percent more likely to have chronic health conditions such as heart disease, diabetes, or cancer than married people. They also have 23 percent more limitations on their mobility, which means they are more likely to have trouble getting around when they get older. By some measures, they are even less likely to be physically or mentally healthy than people who never married at all. (see "Another Good Reason To Stay Married" http://www.newsweek.com/id/208544) That's more confirmation to me of how important it is to work out marriage problems and stay married. Most divorces are based on selfish reasons.  It also explains to me why my 80 year old next door neighbor (never divorced) is so much more energetic and strong than I am. (Of course I have diseases she doesn't have, too, but I  do think divorce, death of a spouse, or separation due to having to seek work elsewhere takes a chunk of life out of you, physically and emotionally.) Of course not all marriages SHOULD be saved. There are very dangerous relationships that are better to get out of. The study assumes that maybe this is another reason why people in the generations before us had so much more strength, drive, energy and less depression. Only a very small percentage of past generations were "damaged" by divorce. Another study showed that the amount of men now dying in their early 50s has jumped astronomically, because they just don't take care of themselves if they become single. In one generation, USA's average life span went from 76 to 69.

If one divorce does these things to a person's body when they are healthy, I don't know how long my damaged body
will handle the effects of another loss of a husband.  What a spot I'm in. I know I will live as long as the Lord wills, because my heart has stopped many times before, and since Canada won't let me get a pacemaker, GOD restarts my heart and HE is my pacemaker, but I will have NO quality of life if I get any worse than I am now.

Ok, I've got to stop that negative
thought with the verse I'm holding onto:

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
 plans to give you hope and a future.
-Jeremiah 29:11

Someone on TV said something that was a perfect reminder. (Why do we need reminders? Why can't we just remember everything and recall it when needed?)

They said that most of the fear and negative feelings in the world are due to worrying about the future or grieving about the past, instead of just living for today. Sure,  we should PLAN for the future, but don't fear it or worry about it, because God has promised to give us what we need for that day. Not always what we want, but what we need. Not worrying about the future is easy to say, hard to do. It's a gospel principle!

     Matt: 6:34 "So do not worry or be anxious about
     tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and 
     anxieties of its own. Sufficient for each day is 
     its own trouble."

     Well I'd better TRY to take a 1 hour nap and get back to work. Thanks again for your comments and prayers. THEY DO HELP! CAN Someone tell me when you can get through an hour without sobbing about the loss?

Love, Sheila

Friday 4 December 2009

LOST MY HUSBAND??

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you"
declares the Lord,
"Plans to prosper you
and not to harm you.
plans to give you hope and a future."




No, I have not lost my husband to death (yet), but we have been devastated. THE GOV'T TOOK AWAY MY HUSBAND...and took his wife from him, and took our marriage, and our chance to be together.


I am trying to rest in the scripture verse in the picture above, but I am not feeling it strongly yet. I do feel the Lord's peace and comfort, but I am not sensing a lot of guidance like I usually do.


No one will need to ask about when my husband is coming anymore. He probably won't be coming. That will probably be a relief for all my friends.


I have pretty much just had my husband taken away from me. The Canadian government first promised to get him home to me within 8 months. Now it has been 6 years.


He was finally approved in April, and we were told "Any day now, you will get all the papers necessary." He is not a citizen of Canada, and because of their delays, and their torment and forcing us to repeat sending the same work 5 times, now they are saying that he has to start all over again, to get the right to come to Canada.


The embassy said that if we (or anyone else, meaning government leaders, lawyers, or even the Prime Minister) tries to write to the Canadian Embassy about us for any reason (for example to ask why they want it all again, or to tell them he has already been approved...or to tell them they HAVE all those documents, sent FIVE TIMES IN 6 YEARS)...that they do not have to respond to any letters about our case for 9 months. Their time estimates are always a lie. Every time they give us a time schedule, we have to at least double it. This means that pursuing my husband and I getting together could literally become a never-ending process.


Since I am the one required to do all the paperwork and talking to government leaders and going to court; and I have been getting sicker and sicker from the stress, I don't think my body will survive doing it again for years and years and years.

The embassy also said they will process our papers within 9 months AFTER we give them everything they ask for, so this could easily turn into 2-4 more years. They could keep this process going until it finally kills me, and the process would still not be done. They could keep me busy full time, making my heart failure worse and worse, so that if my husband is ever approved to be with me, he would have a complete invalid for a wife, or I could die shortly after he gets here; leaving him alone in a strange culture.

My husband, my future, my hope, my reason for living, gone. I am in mourning. All my work, worthless. Loss of health, all in vain now. All our hopes and dreams for the future, all our love, will never happen. I have drawers full of things I bought for him throughout the years for when he gets here. I can't even look at them now.


My options are, I can either work myself to death and they still might not be finished the process, or I can let my husband go and have a life, with a wife and children, which he deserves. Neither of those choices will bring peace. We are just distraught and heartbroken. I am not alone in this suffering, but it doesn't ease the pain. If you go to
www.notcanada.com you will see tens of thousands of people who the Canadian government has destroyed their lives and their families and some even died from the stress; and immigration didn't care. Not just immigrants, but also people who were here but not yet citizens, who left the country for a while...or who were kept out of the country by Canada themselves, for no reason! HOW can a government stop processing a visa or take away the right to a visa after a JUDGE has already approved it??? I KNOW it must be against the law, but not even the Prime Minister himself can talk to the Embassy about it, because they have stated they will not answer ANY questions about our case for 9 months! If we get government leaders to confront them about it, they can make life harder for us than we ever imagined.


DO THEY WANT BRIBERY? Maybe in that area it is not against the law, I would bribe them for my husband; but they never sign a name or give me any idea who to talk to in order to know who to contact.

I wish I could sue the gov't for pain and suffering and fees and lying to us again and again and lawyer's fees and medical bills for procedures we will both need from stress induced illness.


We are mentally, spiritually and emotionally devastated, hurt and confused despite our love and trust in God through every step. This letter really turned our world upside down. Our minds and hearts and even our faith is spinning!


We know there have been many people in love in history that were not allowed to be together due to world politics...we just didn't think it would happen in this day and age. We have trusted God completely through this and given Him credit for every little advancement and achievement. We received his guidance, comfort and strength whenever we had fears, and we had spiritual experiences telling us we had a purpose for being together...but now we are wondering if this is God's plan, or an evil corrupt government's interference with what God wants. Since God hates divorce, he probably is NOT happy with what the government is doing to so many families.


If it is God's work, then we are no longer supposed to be together, but how could we have mistaken all the spiritual experiences and guidance from the Holy Spirit, and comfort and strength we got, that helped us through all the lies and delays and repeated demands for paperwork?

If it is the government's work, isn't God more powerful than a government? It's all so confusing....the only thing I can come up with is that the government delayed our reunion for so long, that I am no longer able to be a wife or no longer able to complete what my husband and I were supposed to complete together. Maybe there would only be misery and hardship for both of us.



BUT MISERY IS NOT HOW I IMAGINED OUR MARRIAGE AT ALL! I have lists of things I wanted to show him and fun things I wanted to experience with him and places to take him! I smile to even think of his smile when he would experience something new here.

You can't imagine how it tore me up to tell him that he would not be betraying me if he got remarried. He needs a wife and children. He has not had that yet. I have. You can't imagine how it tore HIM up to hear it...that after 6 years of sacrifice and worry for each other's life, after love as strong as the most loving couples in history...that he may have to move on and try to make a new life.


He is so deeply loving...I am so afraid he will think of suicide. I wish I could sue immigration for murder...his and mine. Mine from heart failure from their stress, and possibly his either from war or suicide or other stress related illnesses.


We have often talked about and researched other countries that maybe we could move to together, but due to lack of money, the time it would take to immigrate to another country, and my lack of strength to even sit up for 2 or 3 hours, that's not a possibility.

The torment has lasted too long. First torment of wondering when and if he will survive the war; my husband's torment whenever my life was in danger health wise; worrying when and if he will get here, when and if the government will follow through with their promises, and if I can be a good wife, or if I would make his life miserable by living with a sick wife, and now it continues with the torment of losing my husband. I just want to "go home".


In ancient times, certain criminals were punished by laying them on the ground, putting an old door on top of them, then putting really large stones on top of the door until the person was crushed to death. For the past many years, and especially since you have known me through my blog, you have been with me to help me bear each of the stones being put on the door with me underneath it. I think this is one of the biggest stones in my life. Losing my first husband without any clue that we had a problem, then having to leave my children in the USA while I moved to Canada, were the stones that did the most damage. I think most of us have many crises (multiple) that are like these stones, and yet we do not get the mercy of death; we are expected to even keep smiling and not yell out in pain, and not complain to others about it, and to continue life as if there is nothing wrong.



Well, now I am "crushed". I don't have the strength to put on any acts anymore. I would not have gotten this far without the help of our loving Savior and Heavenly Father and the Holy Spirit and whatever angels that were sent. I'm sure life WILL go on. I will keep waking up the next day. I have learned this through every life changing event, but I have not been able to pull myself out of the depression. I HOPE I will feel differently soon, but today, when this shock is so new, it feels as if I am just waiting to finish my time on this earth.


It is said that ALL things work for good for those who love the Lord, and I always saw that come true, so now I have to have faith that it is STILL true. There is a purpose for this letter...it's just a very tough decision whether to keep going on this same path of abuse by immigration, or to move on and try to make a life for ourselves.

This marriage has had enough suspense, romance, war, espionage,
and drama to make 3 James Bond movies, or a novel as huge as
"War and Peace". Too bad I don't have the strength to write it.

Thank you my loving gifts from God, my spiritual friends, for being my earth angels and strengthening me through all of the heavy stones placed upon me.
Bless you all, Sheila




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