My First "Grandma" Experience
Yesterday I had an experience that made me really feel connected to my grandkids, and really made me feel like a grandma for the first time. My younger daughter (the one in pink shirt) called and had her oldest (the boy under her arm in maroon shirt) call me and talk his baby talk, and then he said "let's sing twinkle twinkle!" So we sang "Twinkle twinkle little star together" and he told me about what he learned in church on Sunday and about his bad dream the night before. I know I AM a grandma, but there is no communication between the boys and I and they only know me for the gifts I send. Now that my oldest grandson can read, I can start sending him letters so we can get to know each other better, and as the others learn to read, I'll do the same with them. I just feel like a useless grandma because with this weakness, I can't babysit them or get on the ground and play with them the way I want, so I barely know how to act if they were to come visit, or if I were to go visit there. I love kids so much. Even kids pictures and jokes can make me laugh like nothing else in this life.
This is the first time I have been brave enough to share family pics here. Here are my 2 girls and they each have 2 boys. I have only met 3 of them. 2 of those I saw just for a few hours out of these 11 years since I had to leave my girls in the USA after my husband left, and my choice was to become homeless and sick with 2 broken ankles, or to come back to Canada and live in a bedroom in my parents' home. The men are not in this picture because one was at National Guard that weekend, and the other is newly divorced but still friends with her ex, but he is at special forces training (Like Green Beret).
I am hoping to get feeling better (like I have hoped for 11 years) to start a new life, but I also have to make alternative plans to try to see them and enjoy them even if I don't get well. I am better now than I was before 2 or 3 weeks ago, but still have not gained much strength. I'm working on that.
So now you see what happens when you get married at 18...you get lots of grandkids very early in life. I was 36 or 37 when I became a grandma.
This Grandma business could be fun if I could get to the point that everything wasn't so difficult and so painful!
Blessings,
Bluebirdy
Bluebirdy
Hi Bluebirdy,
Oh, your grandchildren all look so wonderful. They are like angels in the arms of their parents. I hope you will regain your strength soon to enjoy the warmth of your family once again. Life has been so hard on you and you deserve the joy and happiness of being with your loved ones. I am always praying for your healing my friend. Thanks so much for the wonderful post. God bless you and your loved ones always.
Mel Avila Alarilla said... Wed Jun 11, 05:22:00 pm GMT-6
Sheila,
They are all beautiful! I am glad to hear that you are still feeling better. I pray that it will continue.
Love'ya,
Linda
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Mel Avila Alarilla said... Tue Jun 17, 10:15:00 pm GMT-6
beautiful grand kids. shiela, you're so blessed to have them. nothing is impossible with God. i got this verse while reading my bible this morning. "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4 God knows what they are. =D
Anonymous said... Wed Jun 18, 12:25:00 am GMT-6
Lovely kids!
You have a beautiful site..
I wish you good health and many, many blessings!
I came here from Mel site
and I'm happy.
krystyna said... Wed Jun 18, 04:45:00 pm GMT-6
Hi! I found your blog by linking from Leslie's. I married at 18 years old, too. I spent my entire my adult life as a stay-at-home mom. I was diagnosed with lupus in 2005 and divorced in 2007. I was left with no health insurance, no job experience, and two teenagers to raise. It has been a difficult journey.
I really like your blog. It is inspirational! Take care.
Solaroil said... Tue Jul 01, 09:17:00 am GMT-6
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