LIFE --1 Hour At A Time!

Yesterday I wanted to go get the groceries, because we had gone without so many things it finally just had to be done. Mom is healthy enough to do it, but I don't know her reason for not doing it...so I tried. I got showered, dressed, groomed, and then was so exhausted I couldn't even get up the stairs. What a weird disease! I decided that when I want to go out, I will have to shower and do grooming before bed at night, then use energy just for going out to run that errand the next day. I did it. I got groceries for the first time in about 8 months, had to use the scooter with the shopping basket in the store. There is no way I could walk through a store. I then put them all in the car, in a blizzard, went to the second store to get non-food items, went and filled the car with gas, still in the blizzard, then when I got home, my brother helped me unload them, the trunk and back seat were full. That is the most groceries we got at once in years I think. I had to rest before I unloaded the car, then after unloading the car rested again before putting the food away. Now I am in serious pain, but the oxygen and my medicine will help soon. I am just so proud that I was able to do it! I will have to recover for days from this, but still happy I was able to do it.
The thought of my father was with me so strongly today that I wonder if he was really with me! Then I remembered that today is the 23rd, the date that he died 5 months ago.
Well, I used up all my "spoons" today. LOL. Those of you who know the story of the "Spoon Theory" will understand what I mean. If you want to read it, it is here in my blog at:
http://bluebirdyliving.blogspot.com/2007/10/spoon-theory.html
It really is a blessing to be able to do things and feel the sense of accomplishment, instead of being so weak that I think I am a useless person. I guess my many worldwide friends that I counsel each day through chat and friendships would never call me that, but we are hard on ourselves, aren't we all? When illness limits us, we need to focus on all the things we still CAN do, not just what we can't, and to use our imagination to learn new ways to do things that we think we can no longer do.
To my dear readers who have left me comments, and have become part of my life, you are in my prayers daily! Prayer has power, so know that something good will happen soon! Blessings,Bluebirdy

Posted by Bluebirdy at 21:24