Life is a roller coaster. I was up on the high parts for a while, then enjoying the ride as I went down, now I'm in the bottom parts for a while waiting for the gears on the roller coaster to slowly pull me up that steep slope again to the top.
I am so thankful for some relief from one of my conditions, but I quickly found out that because I felt better, I started doing more than I have been able to do in years, and that made my other conditions flare up quite badly. I started wondering if it was Satan just trying to keep me flat on my back, but after much prayer, asking the Lord to remove Satan's influence from my life for a little while, the other health problems are still here, so now I know I am just paying for pushing myself too hard for too long.
Family visits are precious memories!
My brother showed up at our doorstep a week ago, and it was a great surprise. I have only seen him about 5 times in 33 years. He was craving some foods that Mom used to make when he was a kid living here, so I went to the grocery store. It's a big store, so I had to use my walker, and since I have an injured shoulder, (tendonitis from leaning on my arm here in bed as I do my computer work) that was not working too well.
I came home and spent the whole day cooking a bit, resting a bit,over and over, so it took all day to cook quite a simple dinner, then I crashed from pain after, and a week later I am still recovering. I tried to get some insulin from my Dr. because of the many hours a day I spend semi-conscious, in a deep sleep due to too high or too low blood sugar. The Dr. said that insulin would be dangerous for my particular diabetes problems, so I have to figure out some other methods to try to avoid the highs and lows. Most of this week though, when I was passing out, I checked my blood sugar, and it was fine...so there is more than one problem causing me to pass out. Maybe diabetes and my heart failure? I don't know.
When I start worrying, my blood sugar gets very high, and I pass out; and with the increased violence in my husband's area, I've been scared.
My Husband is in greater danger!
The Taliban caused the biggest bombing in Pakistan in history, and at the same time that they were in Islamabad doing that at the Marriott Hotel, other Taliban members were a few hundred miles north of there, bombing the power grid in the town where my husband is, so they will have no power for weeks or maybe months. I told him that if they are hitting utilities for some reason, next they would get the natural gas lines. At 4 in the morning his time, he called me and told me that they had just bombed the natural gas lines, and that there was also no water, because it takes electricity to run the pump to pump the water into the houses. The man that owns the house where my husband lives works at the power station and was blessed to escape with his life. There is a bit of bottled water in the stores, which people quickly bought out, but now the stores are closed because you can't see in those stores without electricity.
Soon Chaos for hubby, and possible economic collapse for the world?
There will be chaos there very soon. No power, no electricity, no heat, no water, and it's starting to get cold there. Winter is near. No one will be able to go to work, so no paychecks, so people will start stealing. They will have to go without their medications, if they have no money and no stores are open, so people will be getting very sick.
A few hours ago my husband had another close call, almost getting shot in cross-fire. Yesterday his neighborhood got hit by mortar and parts of homes on his street are destroyed, and again he was protected! I am SO grateful for God protecting him. I hope that means he is being protected so he can come be with me, but if it's the Lord's will that we won't be together, I will know that too is for my best good, and though I will grieve, I will trust the Lord's decision.
Since my husband can't get out of that country, He is thinking about going to another province to stay in a motel, where he would have electricity so he could continue his job of doing translations on the internet, but he doesn't have the money, and no one can send him money because the Western Union office is closed because it can't function without electricity either. We were trying to get him transferred to Syria where he could be in a safe area and continue his internet work, but that too takes money, and would mean he needs to take someone with him as a roommate so he's not completely alone in a strange country. He only has a cell phone, so soon his battery on his cell phone will run down and we won't be able to talk to each other that way either. I bet the Taliban will hit the telephone lines next. I think they are trying to make life so miserable for the people that when the chaos starts, they will step in and offer the people to help them get the utilities back if the people will make them the leaders, and since the people will be so desperate, they will think "ANYTHING would be better than what we are going through now", so they might give in to the Taliban.
Taliban are NOT true Muslims!
Because of the area where my husband lives, I have been studying Islam the whole time we have been dating and married, so I could know the culture and people that my husband would be surrounded by. The Taliban actually has no right to even call themselves Muslim. No "real" Muslim would be killing and making war during this holy month of Ramadan, bombing fellow Muslims who are praying in Mosques, no true Muslim would be killing women or children; it's against their religion, and so is suicide. They are claiming to do all these things in order to force people to live the laws of God perfectly, but they themselves are breaking every rule in their own holy book! They may have been raised as Muslims, but no Muslim would attack their own people/neighbors/ relatives like that. The world needs to know that they are not just out to hurt Westerners. They are hurting anyone the can! These guys are a scourge that need to be stopped! They are now recruiting girls and boys from age 10 and up to be suicide bombers! Yes, even girls! 99% of the schools they destroyed are girls' schools. So they don't want girls to be literate, but it's ok to make them into walking bombs. Islam is very centered on education for all. Muhammad talked about this constantly, and those Taliban/Muslims who forbid girls education are following tradition rather than God's word, according to their own prophet.
I never dreamed I would have to deal with these horrible last days tribulations so closely. I knew these things would happen in the rest of the world, but thought I was safe in N. America. I never dreamed I would marry someone who would be going into that area, whose every fear and pain I would be sharing with him.
THE COMING CRASH
Then yesterday when oil prices raised $25 a barrel in one day (biggest jump in history) and the PM of Israel resigned, (they have both a president and a prime minister) and the news announced that Russia will be aligning themselves with Iran in order to get as much oil as possible through the massive oil pipelines they just built from Iran to Russia, visions of all the biblical prophecies flashed through my mind, and made me realize that things are happening really fast now, and there are not too many more revelations left that need to come true, and then the Lord will return, and the day of resurrection. I can hardly wait for that to happen, but I am a coward, I am not prepared to go through all the hard times that are supposed to hit between now and then. The fall of the economy is happening quickly. If you want to see what a economists have analyzed how past civilizations fell, and how compares them to the way the USA civilization is doing the same things that made past civilizations fall, go here to watch these videos about the fall of the economy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RjALf12PAWc . It is predicted to be worse than in the 1930s depression, according to economists. It would be wise to start preparing now by storing food, being thrifty with money, and living in a more simplified way. "Use it up, wear it out, make it do or do without." It would be wise to learn how people lived before they had all the modern conveniences. Some authorities are even suggesting that we get our money out of the bank and to buy small gold and silver coins, because paper will have no value. Others say we are safe because each account in N. America is insured by the government for $100,000. But what if the country is bankrupt, or what if you can't even get into the bank because they close the doors? Then that insured account won't do much good. One person on TV said one idea was to split up your accounts into amounts of $100,000 each, so all your money would be protected, but there are still reasons to believe that even that might not be as secure as people think.
The Lord Promises to Provide for us.
In hard times, He may not provide everything you want, He may not even provide everything you THINK you need, but I have lived in poverty before, and He DID provide everything we needed to survive, then often he would provide something that we really wanted, like a gift from heaven.
"When these things begin to take place, stand up and lift up your heads, because your redemption is drawing near." Luke 21:28 NIV"
CNN TV news station yesterday was talking about the coming crash. It's scary but the Lord promised to provide for us day by day, and that the lilies of the field don't worry what they will wear, and the sparrows don't worry what they will eat, yet God clothes and feeds them daily, and since He loves us so much more, he will help us too. I can see that more and more. Christians will get together and help each other out, and will trade with each other for things they need. I know many families who have been storing things all their lives. Some store cloth, some store spices, some store canned goods or grains, and have a wheat grinder, so if we could make a little community and share each other's talents and resources, we would do much better.
The scriptures speak of a time when the whole world will have one monetary system, and if anyone takes on the numbers of that system (sign of the beast), he will be cast out of the kingdom of God, so there will be a LOT of people not able to buy and sell in the main economy, so the only way we will survive is for those people to join forces somehow.
The Legal battle to get my husband home:
A long time ago, I wrote to some Canadian government leaders to try to get my husband home. I got a reply. I was told that since I have a lawyer, now my case in the court system and is all classified and confidential and they are not allowed to help me. I don't believe them, but I will keep trying to make them understand that my lawyer is not doing anything, and that I need someone to speed up the process.
It made me wish I could just hire some of those special forces who go into countries and rescue people who are being kept there against their will.
I did get a phone call from a local member of parliament, though, and he seemed willing to do whatever he could for me if I write up an essay of the whole situation. So I hope that will go somewhere. Otherwise it looks like I need to find out the biggest person in this court system to talk to, to tell them that there is no reason for a 3-5 year delay to get my husband home. He is a civilian. If he was in the military, then he would have more rights and would have to be sent home after his time was up.
I need to hire a novel writer.
If I could write a book about this husband-wife relationship, it would be such a wild story of love, war, danger, governments, suspense, that no one would believe all these things could happen to one couple. They would say "this is fiction, and not even believable fiction. Your imagination is too wild." However, it is all true, and would need to be written in the form of a novel, with the words "based on real-life events."
Well if life is a roller coaster, and I was up so high, and now in the lower part, then soon I should be feeling the grinding teeth of the roller coaster pulling me back up pretty soon. What falls down, must go back up...on roller coasters, anyway. lol.