THANKYOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS!
~WE GOT ANOTHER MIRACLE!! We went to the hospital and instead of admitting Mom, they sent her to the outpatient clinic first, where they kept us for 7 hours, the nurse acted like she was on drugs, kept carrying messages from Mom back to the Dr. who was doing scopes on people, then we would get his opinion back that way, and she kept messing up the messages, didn't understand anything we said, we repeated things up to 6 times, I finally went unconscious from my blood sugar going too low from lack of food or water and all the stress, so they some glucose to bring me around. (And mom was the one there to be treated. Gosh...what a joke, me trying to care for HER.) She is able to do some shopping and clean house a bit (do a LOT more than me), and she can get medical care anytime so she's less apt to die than me. Anyway we got so tired and in pain and frustrated after 7 hours of this carrying messages back and forth and no Dr. seeing mom, no admitting to hospital like she was told was supposed to happen, no test, nothing...so we walked out.
It was a tough day but WORTH IT cuz mom won't be having surgery soon!
Today we start over again and I take her out of town AGAIN (did this day before yesterday) to the Dr. and hospital there...BUT THIS MEANS THE SURGERY WILL BE DELAYED!!!---Which means she will be alive for a while which means I won't be homeless. They don't do surgery in this little town I take her to see her Dr. at
Now if she can delay this surgery until my husband gets home, he can earn enough that we can continue renting the house we are in now, if anything happens to Mom. Or if the Lord can delay the surgery until other living arrangements are made for me (in case my husband doesn't come back from the war zone), that would be a wonderful gift from the lord too.
Got to drag my painful body to put all mom's luggage in the car again. (Why am I doing this when she can do it and is healthier than me and doesn't use a walker and doesn't have any muscle pain at all?) ---yeah...cuz I'm the obedient daughter that is grateful for all the years she cared for me. My brothers and sister have all told me they are really worried that I will die before Mom, because she has been served and waited on for 30 years, and I have served and waited on my first hubby and now mom until my body is falling apart.
In July when that Dr. told me I would only live for 1 year...on days like yesterday, I sure feel like its true, but I won't believe any human. God decides when I go, not man, and I have things to do yet. I hope to be here for the second coming. lol.
Now I have to start looking into getting help for myself, like some cyber-friends have been urging me to do, (been trhying for 10 years but got to keep trying)...to go to the top if I have to...but have not had enough strength for that either. I can only do a little bit of functioning each day. I wish I could afford to hire a secretary for all my taxes, the legal work to get my hubby home, and now to get help for myself. I have not even had a minute or the strength to get gifts mailed out yet. grrrrrrrr!
Wow, such a faith building experience. Now if I could just keep remembering that he is taking care of us and will even make miracles for us! It is hard for me to believe that everything will be OK, because even though I put everything into God's hands, he HAS let some very awful things happen, because that's what life is all about...so even though in my heart I know God is in control...I am always afraid of how hard the next "test" is going to be and if I am up to the challenge.
See? I told you that whenever myu cyber friends pray for me, I feel it, and THINGS HAPPEN! I know the Lord hears the prayers of this group. I have never found so many sincerely faith filled people in one place. THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU for your prayers!
Love you all! Bluebirdy
P.S. Though I cried and prayed half the night from the pain, hurting too much to even get up to get my medicine, hurting too much to get back to the hospital (where they wouldn't do much anyway), TODAY I DON'T HAVE MUCH PAIN! I am ready to help Mom again!!! Usually it takes me a few days to be functional after 2 days of running around like I just had. Yeah I will be hurting when I get back from out of town again, but that's ok if God helps me recover quickly like this time! Oh Lord please help me remember that you love me and are helping me and will continue to help me!
Thursday, 10 January 2008