I called my Dr. today to find out why the medicine I've had for 5 days isn't working as fast as it should, and if I needed something stronger, (like an intravenous antibiotic,) if I could possibly get it done at home by home health care instead of going back to the hospital to get abused. Just my luck, my Dr. was not in today, but the nurse looked at my test results on the computer, and I have infection AND kidney stones! NO WONDER IT HURTS SO MUCH!! When I get an illness, I have to go all the way, don't I?
When I got the flu, I didn't just stop with the flu. I had to do it really well and go on to get pneumonia/bronchitis and asthma.
I am still coughing from that while trying to deal with the kidney pain. I just felt so alone today. The pain is bad enough that I need E.R. help. Kidney pain is worse than childbirth...but like I have said before, if you go to the local E.R. alone, you are abused, as explained below in my explanation of my abuse and my mom being hauled off by security guards for telling a male nurse that I was too sick to change my own clothes right at that moment.
I was offered an appointment at the clinic, but I can't get there alone. I would need someone to help me walk to and from the car and maybe even a wheelchair, and I won't go to the hospital alone, so I am at home holding the pillow over my mouth as I scream when the pain attacks come and go. Then I ask the Lord why I can't even have one friend in this city that would help me get to the hospital or clinic. Mom is too sick to go with me. Well here comes another attack, got to go. I am SO exhausted, feeling like I'm in labor for 5 days. Still about 20 below, too cold to expose my painful body to that cold which causes muscle spasms. SO frustrated!
Oh well, I will lean on the Lord. He is my strength and comfort. I just need a hug.