Mom will be in the hospital at least 2 more weeks. (If she lives.) They have to get rid of the pneumonia, then she'll have surgery, then will be there for a while to recover because I really can't be the nurse she needs at home when there are 4 nurses working on her various tubes at one time. In 3 weeks I have to go out of town to court to try to get my husband here, and when I return from that, I know how my body reacts to traveling and stress, and I will be barely able to move for days after that trip. I will be praying that I will be stronger and healthier than ever to get through the next month or more, because there will be much more required of me whether mom lives or dies. I will have to hold moving sales and find another place to live if Mom passes. I know I keep repeating it but it just seems so very difficult for me that I am shaking.
I remember how much paperwork the government needed Mom to do for Dad when he died last year. I wondered how the government expected people who had no family to do all that paperwork for them after they die. I remember Mom spending more than 80 hours on it. I will be much slower than her if I am moving and going to court and having moving sales and sick all at once. I wish my husband was already here, or that Mom would live until he does get here so I will have his help. I will be praying for her to live, or for her death to be delayed, but the Lord does know better than I do what needs to happen and why,
so I will trust Him to do what is best for all concerned.