This week I just keep saying to myself :
"ALL THINGS WORK FOR GOOD FOR THOSE WHO LOVE THE LORD".
ALL things, no matter how difficult. It's just very tough to get through the storm, but at the end of the storm will be a rainbow, and you can't have a rainbow unless you have the rain or storm first.
I am walking around like a zombie, I just go to the hospital, come home and crash and can't get up or function until the next morning when I get up and go back to the hospital again. Typing in my blog or answering 2 or 3 emails is the limit of what I can do. I got very dehydrated from not drinking enough these past few weeks, (that causes severe kidney pain for me), so I had to go to the E.R. today in order to get through sitting for 6 hours with Mom today. It seems like when no one is there, the nurses neglect Mom to the point that the IV fluids dry up and Mom doesn't get the medicines that were ordered for her etc. You really need an advocate when you are in this hospital. I hope someday I will have someone to do that for me. (Hopefully my husband). But now my family sees how sick I am after 6 hours of going out of the house, and they are saying I have no right to be married because I can't do everything a wife needs to do to make a successful marriage. Right now I don't even know if I will have the strength to get to court, but if the Lord does help me get there, I will need God to make my brain function, because I can barely think with this kind of pain and exhaustion. It looks as though they might send Mom home about the same time I need to be in another city for the court hearing, so I don't know what I am going to do for Mom if that happens.
Mom's pneumonia cleared up amazingly fast, and I know prayer did that. There is material in her bowel moving around the blockage, so it's not a total obstruction now, but the huge lump of body waste is still there on the x-rays, so they are not sure whether to keep her and try to keep dissolving it, or to operate, or to send her home since some things are moving in her bowel. If they send her home now, it will just be a matter of weeks before it's a total obstruction again, and I don't know how many times we both can go through this. She's so much stronger in every way than I am.
My brother goes up to sit with her for a few hours now which is a big help. He didn't do that until about 3 days ago. Hospitals bothered him too much but now he has gotten more used to it I guess. I probably already mentioned that my sister came from out of town and relieved me for a few days, but while I am typing this, I can't read the rest of my blog to see if I have mentioned it or not.
I am so thankful for the many generous, giving, spiritual hearts who help encourage and lift me.
Bless you all!