I went out of town to my family Dr. He only works a few afternoons a month, so I can only see him about every 3 months. He is recovering from mouth cancer, where they removed half his tongue, and replaced one of his jaws with titanium. Its hard to understand him when he speaks, but you adapt to his "accent" like you would with every other accent.
I explained to him about the oral surgery and the complications and that I am still hurting and sick from it. He took a blood test, and found that the infection is still all throughout my body. I asked him for a pain shot, and he said he didn't dare even break my skin with a shot, or it would get infected because of the amount of infection in my body.
He insisted that I increase my pain medicine. He said that bone pain and nerve pain are the worst pains on earth, and I have them both, and if my body is busy fighting the pain, it can't fight the infection. I also got super strong antibiotics, and since he has had horrible mouth/jaw pain, he was VERY good to me!
I am sure that the pain felt worse when I knew that no matter how bad it got, I could not get medical help for it, and now that I know that I CAN get help if I drive to the other city, it eases the pain some.
Night before last, I said some things to my hubby that hurt his feelings. I was expressing my fears by saying that I didn't feel very loved at the moment. He took it as an insult and was very hurt and angry. That turned into a very emotionally painful couple of days, and I wasn't even sure if he would forgive me for it. We talked things out just as I was leaving to go out of town, so it has been a wonderful day. Its also so pretty outside, our roses are blooming again! Mid October and our flowers are blooming in Canada! Unheard of! I LOVE IT! Its so pretty outside, smells so fresh, not too hot or too cold, I would love it to stay this way all winter. I could really use more good days like this. I hope I can teach myself to make EVERY day a good, beautiful day.