Before I even open my eyes when I wake up, I lay and assess what hurts, how I feel, etc. Then say my morning prayer. This morning was the best morning yet, so my prayer was so full of joy and tears and Thanksgiving, so appropriate for the US date of thanksgiving coming up soon.
I want to dance! I want to sing! I have not had that desire for 15 years! If this continues, dance will probably be my exercise. Right now its jut pilates in bed and resistance bands in bed.
It took almost all my strength to get cleaned up and dressed up to go out but I made it to the post office and grocery and put gas in the car and went to see Dad. I don't remember when I could do more than 1 thing in a day. I still had to rest when I got home, though. The strength will come, I have to be patient with this body and keep at it. I had not been able to see Dad for a month, and he looks very bad. It is Mom and Dad's 59th anniversary today, so I am praying God does not take him today. He was not even wakeable when was visiting. I wanted to touch him, hold him, I miss him so much, but he was having a hard time breathing, so I could only touch his hand. What a precious Father he is and always has been.
I have been asking the Lord to help me put into words how different a person's thinking is when they are not in pain. Its like being a different creature! Different planet even. I am afraid the pain might come back and then for sure I won't be able to think of how it was when I had no pain. Now that I can think of other things than pain, maybe I can finish writing my books!
My husband's house got a new baby today, amidst the bombs and machine guns. What a dramatic thought, isn't it? There was a curfew, so she couldn't get to the hospital, so it was born at home with the Taliban and Pakistan Army shooting outside their home!
I have to travel to another city to go to court soon. where I will get the money for that, I don't know. I have to buy 4 phone cards to Pakistan worth 2 hours each so they can call hubby in court, and I have to pay for transportation and room and food for a few days. Its NUTS! My husband has NO reason not to be here. It is a very small detail that is keeping him away and only God knows why the legal system is prolonging it instead of just making a decision based on lawyer's notes from 2 countries! Oh well, someday we will understand. Obviously part of the delay was to wait until I got stronger. What a dramatic life, eh? Even from bed, what a dramatic life I lead!
I want to personally acknowledge my miracle, and THANK OUR LOVING LORD. Even if this all ends tomorrow, it has been a miracle and I am thankful. I don't have the beautiful language of King Solomon, so I am reading the scriptures of praise that he wrote, to thank God with more eloquence than I have.
I pray the same can happen in your life!